Right after everything, I reached home feeling so empty and dark. Not sure what kinda feeling is that. But suddenly not able to call him darling or superman makes me feel like I lost something very dear to me. Right after 2 or 3 hrs, there I am posting an entry. I regretted but i can't do anything. Because I just can't. The reason. Which I can't tell.
I lost the warm hug, I lost the salivary kiss, I lost the guy that always drool on my pillow, I lost the guy who have a cheeky smile. I lost that guy and I can't tell him I regret.
Can't head for sch few hrs later. Don't think I can. I need to stay home and rest. Tough night.