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kenixluv
30 December 2010 @ 05:22 pm

 

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Magdelene 

Eileen

Yuzheng 

Linda

Pauline 

Nizz

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Other links..

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Dawn Yang 

 
 
 
kenixluv
08 December 2010 @ 08:53 am
 
 
kenixluv
06 December 2010 @ 08:36 am
我有一帘幽梦不知与谁能共
多少秘密在其中欲诉无人能懂
窗外更深露重今夜落花成冢
春来春去俱无踪徒留一帘幽梦
谁能解我情衷谁将柔情深种
若能相知又相逢共此一帘幽梦

 
 
kenixluv
12 October 2010 @ 04:21 am
'There comes a point in you life when you realise who matters, who never did, who wont anymore and who always will. So dont worry about ppl from your past, there's a reason why they didnt make it to you future.'
 
 
Current Location: 这就是爱
 
 
kenixluv
29 May 2009 @ 04:46 am

Unknowingly, i had abandoned my blog for a long long time. Blog isnt private for me anymore. I cant lock my blog up becos of him.
And him, the only person that i dont want my feelings and thoughts to be known to.
I just wanted a safe and quiet place where i can pen down everything im feeling.
Somewhere that my thoughts doesnt have to be questioned about.
But i think its not happening.
Sometimes ordinary humans like me still need some privacy. Even when there isnt one in real life.
When i look through my diary years ago, i found out a major change in me.
No more dreams, no more daily singing, no more competition, no more scary and loud laughter. no more public transports.
Im not hoping for anything.

I stayed at home everyday(except going out with him for dinner or occasional shopping trips).
I dont know what to do.
And i cant do what i want.
So i relented. I gave in. I stayed home everyday. I go out with you when you want to.
I acc you at your place when you want to.
I go out with you for dinner when you want to.
I distanced myself from all the guy friends when you want me to.
I quietly kept all your sarcastic comments.
But you doesnt know that things that seemingly means nothing to you can actually scarred me.
But everytime it adds on. And i dont know when you will ever stop.
I dont know what love would means.
but if this is actually love when you hurt the other with your sarcastic comments time and again, i dont think i would accept it one day.
if love is to doubt your partner everyday every second, i dont know why i should be in a relationship.

Everytime i try to tell you, you didnt seems bothered or understand the hurt i get from you.
so one day, i stopped telling you how i feel.
i stopped telling you how i think.

Stop asking me if every guy looking at me is my friend.
Stop telling me im slutty.
Stop comparing me with china prostitute.
Stop restricting me of what i wear or where i go.

Breathe breathe breathe..... 

 

有人曾经告诉过我


“幸福就像一只蝴蝶。你拼命追,你可能永远捉不到。但如果你静悄悄的坐着,它可能就会飞到你身边。”

你...
学会了吗?

 
 
 
Current Location: Home
Current Mood: indescribable
Current Music: 眼泪都笑了
 
 
kenixluv
24 March 2009 @ 02:02 am

My bf has been very nice recently. I can see his effort in trying to save this r/s.
He rarely loses his temper nowadays.
Trying his best to buy flowers that i like.
Trying to make me smile.
Trying to entertain me and to make me feel not bored with him.
I know.



21 march 09 8p.m
we had a car accident on saturday.
It was my first experience.
The car was badly damaged.
Total of 6 cars involved. One after another collided.
But i wasnt scared at all. I was very calm and i dont know why.
Maybe i wasnt afraid of death.

This the front and side of the car that rammed into us.









 
 
kenixluv
13 January 2009 @ 02:13 pm
I didnt mean to lose control over myself.
I couldnt control the outburst.
I didnt want to feel that kind of pain anymore.
I didnt want to feel that i couldnt control my own body and tremble non-stop.
I didnt want to bite myself.

I need time to calm down.
I dont know what is in me. I dont know why sadness overcome me and made me like this.
I need a psychologist.

I... dont know what everything is about.
I only know im subconscious and all i can think abt abt or see is my mum.
I kept tearing or even crying.
I felt awful. terribly AWFUL.
I tried to call "mummy.."
I bite my own hand. I felt like biting and i dont know why.
I know my mum could help me get out of all this mess.
 
 
kenixluv
07 January 2009 @ 08:30 pm
                                   I got my a pink coral F480 hp as a christmas gift. lovely color isnt it?
                                                  Besides, i love its editing function. =)


Anyway, i have decided to get myself started on piano. Its the first step i wanted to do after a graduate. Cos' since young i wanted to learn just that i dont have the time and i want myself to fous on it when i do.  
I may not know what i can do or what i would be doing, so at least i want to do something i want so much since many many years ago. Then probably i will know what i want to do.
I may not be a teacher, not an office lady, not an air stewardess, not an artist or neither a designer. So lets see what im gonna be in few years down the road. 
 
                                                                   
           On the very day i got my hp, we took pictures in the car. HAHA.
 

 
                           My bf face actually quite big huh? hahaha. like big bun. =/
 
 
               And i went to a place at keppel bay. There arent any weird and irritating ppl around.
          So, its quite a nice and relaxing place with lots of ships. =) how i wish i could own one. HAHA

                                                         We went mount faber.
 
As usual, my bf helps me to take pictures there. And i love the lightings there.  =)
 
 
                                             New yr eve. We went swisotel there to dine. But there isnt my bf's favourite pizza. 
                                                                   And mr ong is rather disappointed. =/
 

We went chinatown and chance upon the fish therapy.
so we decided to give it a try. HAHA.
My foot with black toenail is mine. HAHA. i got my toenail flooded with blood cos of a stupid friend
who ask me to go captain's ball. BOO!
Dont know when my toenail will drop. Im waiting.....
I think the fishes are quite cute eh. HAHA,
Thou' im like so scared the very few minutes i put my legs and hands in.
Now then i know the fishes that nimble on our hands and legs are different.
Got white and black. HAHA.
 

 
 
kenixluv
15 December 2008 @ 03:00 am
When can you ever understand? I dont have the patience. i dont need to go through all this shit.
I dont like it. It makes my gastric problem worse. i dont feel well.

56 missed calls

You only makes me more irritated. i just needed the time alone.

He's chasing after me. I couldnt even run away. 
Is this nightmare going to end?
Why should i let myself drag this r/s for more than a yr?
I couldnt possibly live with him.
I dont see the future.
I didnt want to drag it. But he did.
I didnt want to make my regret. But i did.

Im not myself anymore. You caused it.
 
 
kenixluv
28 October 2008 @ 01:56 pm

我发觉 我和另一个女生的感觉问题好相似。

我。。本来有个很要好、很特别的一位朋友
我们从小学就认识了
快10年的友情了
我也不想发怎么一则无情的简讯, 可是又不得已。
面对在一旁的势压 我只好就办。

这个人是我吗?我几乎讨厌死这个我。  这个什么都不能做又无助的我。
这就是我期盼的爱情?
多凄凉。
心里想的, 却不能说出来。
说出来他却不信。

我现在不会再期待什么。
我不会再做白日梦。
不会再想象是个公主。
我已经被搞得精神紧张, 永远在隐藏。
我不想再出门。 有心事也没人能倾诉。告诉我,我该怎么办?
不知如何是好。只好走一步,看一步、边走边看着办。

他越是管着我,我越是变得叛逆。
既然你不信任我,那。。。我们就看着办吧!

 
 
kenixluv
06 October 2008 @ 08:39 am
I lost 3kg~ LOL.
Im waiting so forward to school. The holiday is too long.
HAHA.
I miss linda, pauline and huiqing lahs! (",)
LOVES.

Recently so immersed in the shows of 'Yang Gui Fei' '
 
 
kenixluv
22 July 2008 @ 11:29 am

Your Hidden Talent

The Mass Communicator

You have a cheerful personality and you are a naturally kind person. Your hidden talent isn't really that hidden at all: you shine among a crowd. You would make an ideal news announcer, flight attendant or model - any position that would give you an opportunity to deal with plenty of people. A tip for you is to avoid getting too deeply involved in others' personal lives - otherwise you might find yourself constantly being asked for help. 

 The Real You

Here is the analysis:

  1. You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.
  2. You don't really care about other people's feelings. You do things the way you want and usually think only about yourself. You are easy-going and love to have fun, but you can be irresponsible as well. You are not keen on serious discussions because they can make you remember that life isn't always about parties.
  3. You are a bright, cheerful and bubbly person. You are thoughtful and considerate, and like to have fun. Everybody feels comfortable around you because of your pleasant nature. When you walk into a room, people's eyes are likely to be drawn to you because of your charm.
  4. Your peers think of you as a fun person, but sometimes you can be a little irresponsible. You can be somewhat childish, and can try to ignore the fact that you will one day need to really grow up and be a mature adult! Perhaps you could start reading good books; they might help you look at the world in a different light. You do want to be taken seriously, right?
  5. Your boyfriend thinks that you are a real doll but this is not a totally positive thing. Sometimes you can be a bit too sweet, and come across as being helpless. If you're like this too frequently, your boyfriend and other people are likely to get tired of you having to rely on them all the time. --> this is confirm wrong lo!! ='(

Psychological Test

Here is the analysis:

  • You are easy going and carefree.
  • How ambitious you are depends on the height that you answered, which is: top.
  • You try to please everyone, the size of this personality as seen by others is big.
  • Diamond means stubborn personality.
  • You are also superior and impressive.
  • You are an opportunist.
  • Your husband or wife is the one you need when you are in trouble.

The Animal Test

Here is the analysis:

  1. A kind of person you will be attracted to in a real life situation is those who are unbridled and free
  2. In the process of courtship, the approach that makes you feel irresistible is being patient. Never giving up on you is important.
  3. The impression you'd like to give to your lover is optimistic.
  4. One reason that would make you break up with your partner is his or her being ruthless, cold-blooded or ironic.
  5. The kind of relationship you'd like to build with your partner is a relationship that makes you always feel warm and in love.
  6. Would you commit adultery? You'll try very hard not to.
  7. About marriage, you think marriage is a precious thing. Once you get married, you'll treasure your partner very much.
  8. About love, at this moment, you think of love as a commitment for both parties.
 
 
kenixluv
16 July 2008 @ 08:49 pm




Darling girl, im here to blog. Dont say i never update about my life and disappear in the air okay?

WEST COAST



XING WANG HONGKONG CAFE

my boyfriend loves the food there and especially the 'mantou-s'.
we went there twice.



 thats my hungry bf. lol.

JAPANESE BUFFET

The chawanmushi is damn nice!!! 
sigh. but i forgot to take pictures of the other main course i ate. ='( 
sushi... sushi.. sushi...
i guess this japanese restaurant gonna be my favourite place to dine in already.
 


 
 
kenixluv
10 July 2008 @ 09:17 am

Life in school is plain boring. 
9 to 5.30p.m everday.
I didnt have to chill with eileen and iren. 
Neither do peijun have time for me. She's super busy teacher lahs!

And i started doing a website abt me using flash. And happy to say, im so in love with it.
I mean i did a good job on the butterfly part. HAHA. 



Haha. I did the drawing and colouring part okay? COOL right?  =X

Life's been pretty good recently, but still plain boring. 
i hardly have any ktv session, chilling out with friends for a long time...
And miraculously, im always early for school. Every single day. No kidding. 
But i dont slp that much already. Kicked the habit of being a lazy pig.

Always quarrel with my bf and vice versa.
But in the end, we know we plays an important part in each other's heart.

And there's a long list of things i want to do during my 2 months holiday after 5 weeks.                      

 
 
kenixluv
03 July 2008 @ 08:47 pm
  

And...
This is my beloved bf...

 
 
Current Music: 虽然我愿意
 
 
kenixluv
06 June 2008 @ 08:57 am
 

lets take a closer look...



me, sandra and pauline.


usual 3 of us..



KISS KISS KISS.. <3
 
 
 
kenixluv
05 June 2008 @ 02:27 pm
 

LOVE LOVE LOVE!     >.<
 
 
kenixluv
02 June 2008 @ 02:39 pm
I was thinking, is it tiring to be a  porcupine? 
Always ready and prepared to draw up the skin of the back exposing quills facing all directions, and it then presents its formidable bristling back.
I guess everyone have their cover to protect themselves.

Looking at his photo, i suddenly finds him as a stranger.
The only way i can recognise him is the smell of his perfume he left for me.
Can i choose my route myself?
Maybe when you turn around, you will find that i changed.
Not the girl who will hang on the branch purely because i like you.
Not the girl who will go to your house and apply medicine for you.
Not the girl who will be satisfied with what we used to have.
Not the girl... i used to be.

Sometimes, i find myself changing.. every minute. 

But 2 things remains unchange. 

*Memories cant be erased from my brain.
*Time doesnt waits for me.

I dont want any regrets. Just let me be... .... ... 
 
 
 
Current Mood: drained
Current Music: I dream
 
 
kenixluv
27 May 2008 @ 02:29 pm

Isnt it a beauty? (",)




Can you learn to understand?

If this is my blog, i can write about anything i want. And i dont wish to answer any of your questions. If i meant to tell you, i will.

If i meant to tell anyone verbally, then why would i choose to talk about it in a blog. So whats the point of a blog.

I felt seriously irritated when you started questioning me things that i dont wish to answer. Dont make me dislike you even more.

I seriously am thinking, i shouldnt be having a blog.
Its like you're invading in my privacy.
  

 
 
kenixluv
25 May 2008 @ 03:34 am
他不相信我
这是我脑袋总会出现的字眼。
我不想回答不想去理会。
要不然,这样子做人很累。恋爱, 不应该是开心的吗? 只是, 为什么总觉得是种包袱?

我的想法一直都很简单。 开心、快乐、彼此能够用深邃的眼睛瞩望着对方。

我现在知道我如果能穿梭时空回到从前, 我会想做什么了。
我希望我不会甩了那一巴掌。

在厕所里我看着自己用来甩别人一巴掌的手 ‘你怎么可能性这么做?’
即使我再怎么让自己放松心情, 心竟然平静不下来。
我反复的被疑问埋伏了。

我原来也有不理性的一面。
原来,在电视新闻报导上, 杀了人却说是当时在不理智作为理由是真的。
人类也有不理智的时候。
 
 
 
 

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